For a long time I sat between the two graves and wept. When my tears were finally spent, I felt a calmness wash over
me. I felt the circle finally close. I realized that who I was, what I cared about, was no longer just a matter of intellect or
obligation, no longer a construct of words. I saw that my life in America-the black life, the white life, the sense of
abandonment I’d felt as a boy, the frustration and hope I’d witnessed in Chicago-all of it was connected with this small
plot of earth an ocean away, connected by more than the accident of a name or the color of my skin. The pain I felt was
my father’s pain. My questions were my brothers’ questions. Their struggle, my birthright.
A light rain began to fall, the drops tapping on the leaves above. I was about to light a cigarette when I felt a hand on
my arm. I turned to find Bernard squatting beside me, trying to fit the two of us under a bent-up old umbrella.
“They wanted me to see if you were okay,” he said.
I smiled. “Yeah. I’m okay.”
He nodded, his eyes squinting at the clouds. He turned back to me, and said “Why don’t you let me have a cigarette,
and I will sit and smoke with you.”
I looked at his smooth, dark face, and put the cigarette back in the box. “I need to quit,” I said. “Come on, let’s take a
walk instead.”
We stood up and started toward the entrance to the compound. The young boy, Godfrey, was standing beside the
cooking hut, one leg propped like a crane’s against the mud wall. He looked at us and offered a tentative smile.
“Come on,” Bernard said, waving to the boy. “You can walk with us.” And so the three of us made our way over the
widening dirt road, picking at leaves that grew along the way, watching the rain blow down across the several valleys.
EPILOGUE
I REMAINED IN KENYA FOR two more weeks. We all returned to Nairobi and there were more dinners, more
arguments, more stories. Granny stayed in Auma’s apartment, and each night I fell asleep to their whispering voices.
One day we gathered at a photography studio for a family portrait, and all the women wore flowing African gowns of
bright greens and yellows and blues, and the men were all tall and shaven and neatly pressed, and the photographer, a
slight Indian man with bushy eyebrows, remarked on what a handsome picture we made.
Roy flew back to Washington, D.C., shortly after that; Granny returned to Home Squared. The days suddenly became
very quiet, and a certain melancholy settled over Auma and me, as if we were coming out of a dream. And maybe it
was the sense that we, too, would soon be returning to our other lives, once again separate and apart, that made us
decide one day to go to see George, our father’s last child.
It turned out to be a painful affair, arranged hastily and without the mother’s knowledge: we simply drove with
Zeituni to a neat, single-story schoolhouse, where a group of schoolchildren were playing in a wide, grassy field. After
a brief conversation with the teacher supervising the recess, Zeituni led one of the children over to us. He was a
handsome, roundheaded boy with a wary gaze. Zeituni leaned down and pointed at Auma and me.