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way. She and Bruce “had a turbulent
marriage,” says the source, and ar-
gued over everything from conf lict-
ing career trajectories to his f lirting
with other women. In 1996, Bruce
told Playboy, “No woman is going
to satisfy a man’s natural impulse
to procreate, procreate, procreate”
and not long after, Demi was report-
edly incensed when he invited Liv
Tyler — then his 21-year-old co-star
in Armageddon — to stay in their
Idahohome.“Theyoncegotintoa
hugeblowoutfightoverherjealousy
is sues,”claimsthesource,“andhe
kickedheroutof theirhouse!”
Demi famously left Hollywood
for IdahoafterhersplitfromBruce.
“Thatdecisionmadeahugediffer-
ence in herlife,” says the insider,
noting that she has sincemended
her relationshipwithhim,andeven
attended his most recent vow re-
newalwithwifeEmmaHeming.
Her relationship with Ashton
brought its own ups and downs,
frompublicscrutinyof theiragedif-
ferencetotheirownvaryingcareer
trajectories.In2011,theactorwas
famouslyaccused of partyingin a
hot tubwithtwoSanDiegowomen
—onhisandDemi’ssixthweddingMilaKunis.ROCKBOTTOM
Around the time Ashton began
hookingupwithMilain2012,Demi
reportedlyoverdosedandcollapsed
inherhomeafterallegedlyinhaling
nitrousoxide(aka“whip-its”)then
reportedlycheckedintorehabto re-
portedlydealwithsubstanceabuse
andaneatingdisorder.It wasn’ther
fi rsttimedealingwithdrugissues.
“Earlyinmycareer,I wasspiraling
downapathof self-destruction....I
hadabsolutelynovalueformyself,”She’s namingnames in thisbook, and shehas no regretsÓ— AN INSIDERDemi,whowenttorehabfordrug
and alcoholaddictionfor the first
ti mein themid-1980s,confessedre-
cently,addingthatshe“gota chance
toredirectthecourseof my life.”
The source says the actress,
who embraced vegan diets, yoga
and meditation long beforeitwas
trendy, credits guidance from
longtimefriendandspiritualguru
Deepak Chopra and his mindful-
ness techniques with “saving her
li feand helpingherovercome her
lowestpoints.”
Demi — who was once Holly-
wood’s highest-paid actress, mak-
ing headlines for posing nude while
pregnant and later shaving her head
for her role in G.I. Jane — also has
a lot to say about the pressures of
aging in the public eye. “I’m not in
nearly as good shape physically as
I have been before, and I have skin
going in a direction that I would
prefer it not go. There are things
that just come with getting older,”
she admitted in March. While she’s
been accused of getting Botox and
fi llers, “My big mantra for this year
is about acceptance,” she added. “I
believe that when we hold upset,
anger, hurt, pain or bitterness, it
ages us and we wear it. That isn’t to
say we are always going to feel hap-
py.Butit’simportantnotto holdon
tothings.”
That’s one ofmany reasons she
decidedtounloadallof hersecrets
in print, says the source.“Demi’s
beentohelland back,butshe’sin
agreatplacenow—andis readyto
telltheworldherstory.” ◼POWER COUPLE
A year after calling off
her engagement to
Emilio, she weds Bruce
Willis in Las Vegas in
November 1987 after
just four months of
dating. In December,
they renew their vows
with an LA bash
presided over by
Little Richard.YOUNGER MAN
“Age wasn’t what I was thinking
about, but to the rest of the
world it was a very big deal,” she
said of marrying Ashton, who is
15 years younger, in 2005.
Despite their split, the actor
remains close to her daughters.