dangerous was the fact that during communism the real party, noisy, with drinks and
good cigarettes (very hard to get, I could of being tempted), with music from West, was
not encouraged...I don't even know how many times I jumped by the window during
inspections. In such great measurement I was analyzing everything, that at one point I
was organizing the evening's attraction, a person was saying some sentences, and I was
guessing if it was true or not:
- At New Years Eve, 10 years ago, I was wearing a red dress, said a lady I never saw in
my whole life. - Hmm yes, it s true,I remember my correct answer.
I was almost never wrong, under 5% or less.
Therefore, by the age of 27 I was living like others in 10 lives...I remember the laughter
of a party partner:
- Do you realize that others don't even know where is Militia and the Security (political
police), and us we spend our childhood over there?
Finally, I was called on duty and everything was prepared to happen.
On a beautiful autumn day I was walking on the Tower street...this name is not by
accident, nothing is by accident, not even my age of 27, the age when you become
responsible of your acts, how was written in the Bible. By middle way of the street, I
saw an old German man, familiar face, stopped in front of me saying:
- You hear me, don't think about material objects the way they are , but to their
symbolism. For example, a table is not just a 4-foot counter-top, but a support for
energizing, for knowledge.
I was mouth opened myself, not just because of his speech.. He was transforming...his
face became full of light while he was talking, his old body became straight, he suddenly
seemed in best shape and gesticulating vigorously. After saying what he had to say, one
second later he became and old man and left, not at all in best shape or full of energy. He
entered in the yard where he was living and The Thought came back to immediately:
- Write the book!
I was still reluctant, at that “hour” I was sure it was martyrdom, so I said:
- Another one to write it...I won't do it not even for Pamela Anderson.
I was still connected to...now I forgot to what...something with going after women, now