out of there and called my boyfriend
from the nearest pay phone. The audi-
tion was a few days later. The casting
director told me, “You know you’re not
getting this part, right?” And that was
that. The takeaway was, “You’re not
cut out for this.”
ZOË BROCK: I was taken to Cannes by my
modeling agent. One evening at a din-
ner, I was seated next to Harvey. We all
went out on the town and then back to
Harvey’s suite for a nightcap. After the
others left, that’s when Harvey made
his move. He walked out of the room
and came right back in naked. I was
able to lock myself in the bathroom,
but he was right behind, chasing me,
banging on the door. That’s when I
got angry. To this day I don’t know
how I did it. I screamed at him, “Put
your fucking clothes on, you naughty
fucking boy!” It pulled him up short.
He became quite meek. He said, “Yes,I will. You’re right. Absolutely. I’m so
sorry.” It was mind-bendingly fascinat-
ing. When I came out he was sitting on
the bed in a robe. I’m like, “What the
fuck is wrong with you?” And he start-
ed to cry. He said, “You don’t like me
because I’m fat.” That was one of the
weirdest things that’s ever happened
to me in my life. I actually felt sorry
for him in that moment. And I should
never have felt sorry for Harvey Wein-
stein, because he is a bad, bad person.
He called up one of his assistants,
Rick Schwartz, and they drove me
back into town. Rick was ashen. As I
said in the class action lawsuit, he
turned to me and said, “I’m so sorry.
Of all the girls we’ve done this to, it
shouldn’t have been you. You deserved
better.” He admitted to my face that
it was a pattern—that they worked
together in unison to do that. It was
organized crime.The AFTERMATHLYSETTE ANTHONY: I feel like I’ve been
on the run from him most of my life. I
find it impossible to have a feeling for
myself. It’s still locked in some deep
well of filth and shame.
DOMINIQUE HUETT: I left Hollywood
after that. I thought, How can I make
it in this business if it’s like this? The
only thing I ever wanted to do was
be an actress, and it never happened.
So I kept his secret. It takes a toll, and
you don’t even realize it until you
look back and see that maybe that’s
why everything wasn’t working out.
Not just career, but relationships,
your family.
KADIAN NOBLE: When I left that room, I
was never the same again. It destroyed
me. I lost trust; I lost hope. If you don’t
have hope, you lose yourself.LUCIA EVANS: Things got even more trau-
matizing when they made me walk the
crime scene, at Harvey Weinstein’s old
office in Tribeca. It was absolutely hor-
rible. Afterwards I sat on the subway,
surrounded by people, and cried.
LAUREN O’CONNOR: I was scared that
filing a memo with HR would impact
my ability to be successful or even
have a livelihood. I was issued a non-
disclosure agreement. I couldn’t dis-
cuss what occurred—not even with
my family or closest confidants—
and therefore could not adequately
process it. I learned later that Black
Cube, the Israeli private intelligence
firm Harvey hired to dig up dirt on
people, had been keeping tabs on
me. I now look over my shoulder in a
way I never used to. I think it will be
a very long time before that changes.
KAJA SOKOLA: I was confused and
ashamed. As a very young girl alone inNew York—I didn’t have friends there;
my family was back in Poland—I felt
isolated from the world, and I had a lot
of suicidal thoughts. The only reason
I’m still here is the help of my sister.
Even if you learn how to accept what
happened, there are some wounds that
never really heal.
CAITLIN DULANY: It was life-changing
because I couldn’t make sense of it.
I just left it all behind: friends, my
dreams, everything. I felt as though I
had lost something—like promise, or
intelligence, or feistiness. I lost myself.
MELISSA THOMPSON: Before, I was trust-
ing and optimistic. Afterwards, I was
scared of everybody.
JASMINE LOBE: He said, “Promise me
you’ll never write about me.” For years
it ate away at me. That is what started
my writing career, oddly: this gnaw-
ing that I needed to write this story.
I showed it to a friend, and she gaveme a column in a publication. It was
that traumatic experience that led, in
a way, to me finding my voice.
LARISSA GOMES: Despite Harvey Wein-
stein’s best efforts, I’m still standing.
All of us are still standing.
PAULA WILLIAMS: Like any fire you have
to walk through, it made me stronger.
I became a producer because I felt that
being an actress made me vulnerable
to people like him. I wanted more con-
trol over my career.
LOUISE GODBOLD: People ask me if I
was traumatized by the incident with
Harvey. Yes and no. I did not develop
PTSD, because I got away—I was able
to assert control. What I didn’t have
control over was having to see his
face in the news for two and a half
decades after that.
ALLY CANOSA: Any time the press writes
about Harvey Weinstein, they put a
nice big picture of his face on thethey worked together in unison to do that. It was organized crime.”