about yourself, be accepted by society, and have 40 percent fewer
cavities as well! We are all controlled emotionally by this notion of
lack.How My Transformation Began ...
and Perhaps Some Inspiration for Your Own
I started this chapter by telling you of that moment when I was sitting on
my couch and realized that there was quite a gap between who I really was
and the identity I presented to the world. So I’d like to close this chapter by
telling you the rest of the story....
Around the time this happened, I was traveling frequently, lecturing to
people who had seen me in the movie What the BLEEP Do We Know!?
When I was speaking in front of groups, I felt really alive, and I’m sure I
came across as happy. But in that moment, I was feeling numb. That’s when
it hit me. I had to show up being how everybody expected me to be, based
on how I appeared in the movie. I’d started believing I was somebody else,
and I needed the world to remind me of who I thought I was. I was actually
living two different lives. No longer did I want to be trapped by that.
As I sat alone that morning, I felt my heart beating, and I started thinking
about who was beating my heart. I realized in one instant that I had
distanced myself from this innate intelligence. I closed my eyes and put all
of my attention on it. I started to admit who I’d been, what I’d been hiding,
and how unhappy I was. I began to surrender some aspects of myself to a
greater mind.
I then reminded myself of who I no longer wanted to be. I decided how I
no longer wanted to live based on that same personality. Next, I observed
my unconscious behaviors, thoughts, and feelings that reinforced my old
self and reviewed them until they became familiar to me.
Then I thought about who I did want to be as a new personality ... until I
became it. Suddenly I began to feel different—joyful. This had nothing to
do with all of those things outside of me; it was part of an identity that was
independent of any of that external stuff. I knew that I was on to something.