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I’M IN THE GIRLS’ BATHROOM, retying a bow around my ponytail, when Genevieve walks in. My
mouth goes dry. She freezes, and then she turns on her heel to go inside a stall. When I say, “You and I
are always meeting in the bathroom,” she doesn’t reply. “Gen... I’m sorry for the other day.”
Genevieve whirls around and advances on me. “I don’t want your apology.” She grabs my arm.
“But if you tell one single person, I swear to God—”
“I wouldn’t!” I cry out. “I won’t! I would never do that.”
She releases my arm. “Because you feel sorry for me, right?” Genevieve laughs bitterly. “You’re
such a little phony. Your whole sugary sweet routine makes me sick, you know that? You’ve got
everyone fooled, but I know who you really are.”
The venom in her voice stuns me. “What did I ever do to you? Why do you hate me so much?”
“Oh my God. Stop. Quit acting like you don’t know. You need to own the shit you did to me.”
“Wait a minute,” I say. “What I did to you? You’re the one who put a sexy video of me on the
Internet! You don’t get to change the story because you feel like it. I’m Éponine; you’re Cosette! Don’t
make me out to be the Cosette!”
Her lip curls. “What the fuck are you even talking about?”
“Les Mis!”
“I don’t watch musicals.” She turns like she’s going to leave, and then she stops and says, “I saw
you guys that day in seventh grade. I saw you kiss him.”
She was there?
She sees my surprise; she revels in it. “I left my jacket down there, and when I went back to get it,
I saw the two of you kissing on the couch. You broke the most basic rule of girl code, Lara Jean.
Somehow in your mind you’ve made me out to be the villain. But what you should know is I wasn’t
being a bitch just for the sake of being a bitch. You deserved it.”
My head is spinning. “If you knew, why did you keep being my friend? You didn’t stop being my
friend until later.”
Genevieve shrugs. “Because I liked throwing it in your face. I had him and you didn’t. Believe me,
we weren’t friends anymore from that moment on.”
It’s odd that out of all the things she’s ever said to me, this hurts the most. “Just so you know, I
didn’t kiss him. He kissed me. I didn’t even think of him that way, not before that kiss.”
Then she says, “The only reason he even kissed you that day was because I wouldn’t. You were
second choice.” She runs her hand through her hair. “If you had admitted it back then, I might have
forgiven you. Might have. But you never did.”
I swallow. “I wanted to. But it was my first kiss, and it was with the wrong guy, and I knew he
didn’t like me.”
It all makes sense. Why she went to such lengths to keep me and Peter apart. Leaning on him,
making him prove she was still his first choice. It’s no excuse for all the things she’s done, but I see
my part in it now. I should’ve told her about the kiss right away, way back in seventh grade. I knew
how much she liked him.
“I’m sorry, Genevieve. I truly am. If I could take it back, I would.” Her eyebrow twitches, and I