Dear Lilly,
This is my 18th letter to you and again I'm not going to post
it, infact I'm going to keep it safe at the last of my book shelf
and let it stay there till I find the courage to post it with other
17 letters that I wrote since we stopped being friends.
I remember the day we broke our 2 years long friendship,
what was the reason? I don't even remember it. I was so silly,
so stupid. We were both so childish that neither of us tried to
make it right, to keep our friendship.
I remember later that day, after coming back home I was
feeling so low, so sad that I decided to patch our friendship
back the very next day but when the next day came all hope
was gone. You changed, you gave up on our friendship so
soon, so fast.
After that I was not sad, i was angry, angry at you for giving
up so early.
I blamed you but deep inside I knew where I went wrong.
There are some days when we are more sensitive then other
and some days we have zero pride and endure everything
with a shameless loud laugh.
I prefer shameless laugh, it's so freeing, so... I don't know
what but it feels great.