both good and bad, e.g. I procrastinate too much on coursework but
then I'm also a lot more adaptable. While I'm politeto everyone, I
wouldn't say I have high regard to whether someonehas authority or
not (which also applies to age).
To me, stereotypes are just plain bad be they "positive"ones or
negative ones. Positive ones because they homogenizepeople and also
set higher standards which not everyone can or wantsto pursue.
I never quite related to "the Asian stereotype" thoughbecause it always
felt like it was supposed to be about North East Asianpeople which
basically equates being Asian to being NE Asian. SoI always felt like
I'm "not the right kind of Asian".
A theoretical space without racism.
I would feel more confident I think. Due to my workI have to
constantly talk to lots of people from all over theworld. I'm always
worried about what they think of me specifically becauseof my
ethnicity (e.g. do they think I'm less experienced,do they think I'm not
too smart because I come from a developing country).So I often feel
like I have to work twice as hard to show that I'mcompetent.
Tell.
I think one thing is that I'm lately developing adistinctly Central Asian
identity basis which also entails that I don't alwaysthink of myself as
just Asian. Or rather I prioritize Central Asian overAsian. It's also true
that I feel more proud of and connected to the CentralAsian identity.
I think in my mind it's because I feel quite disconnectedfrom other
Asian cultures from. The disconnect is obviously expectedyet it feels
strong enough that using one word to describe us allfeels almost
absurd.
At the same time I think the Asian identity is beautifulexactly because
of its diversity. So being Asian and belonging tothat also makes me
proud. But I'm a bit wary of using Asian as my owndescriptor because
people often assume things for me if I do that (e.g.I get confused for a
NE Asian person way too often).
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