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and which god we place our faith in. we can definitely do better than
this.
Tell.
i don’t feel like i belong — not with my family, myrace, my religion or
my country.
my perspective and understanding of the world aroundme differs
greatly from that of my family. the combination ofgenerational
difference, strength of faith and cultural beliefsis often fuel distaste
and alienation within me. i don’t necessarily wantmy opinions to be
reciprocated but it makes expressing myself and beingmyself difficult
around people who have shown, time after time, thatthey simply are
not willing to take time to understand me they wayi have with them.
as mentioned before, i do not have a well of sharedexperiences with
people of my race that i could pick from to validatethat i am one of
them. my relationship with God is also shaky and wavering,and i
absolutely cannot stand it when i’m brushed off withthe mention of
God when i turn to someone to share my issues andworries with. it’s
rude, insensitive but most of all hurtful — for thepeople i have chosen
to be a part of a conversation important to me merelyoffered prayers
and turned me to God. no matter how peaceful the practicesof my
religion may be, it will always feel like a weirdcult to me.
Singapore on the other hand feels like a place thati’m merely residing
at for the moment. aside from the current pandemicand financial
strains, not much could be considered an incentivethat appeals to me;
to want me to stay. the “hustle till you retire” mindsetis straining and
exhausting. i don’t want to work till the brink ofdeath to finally be able
to experience life. the education system is also prettycutthroat,
especially for those considered not be as academicallysmart on paper.
i just want to be able to live and function at myown pace.
to summarise: on the outside, those around me wouldbe able to vouch
me an Asian — descendant of Asian heritage and blood,born in an
Asian country, celebrates festivities and practicesa faith that’s
predominantly of Asian origin and the likes. i mayseem like an Asian,
but my sense of belonging and identity with the termis not as strong
as it probably should be.
Correct.
to not be afraid to speak up and correct people wheni hear them using
racial slurs, even if it means to be in the spotlightfor a bit and be
engaged in a conversation that may be uncomfortable.we all have
names and terms we preferred to be addressed with,but so do the
people who we have developed a bias against simplybecause of their
physical attributes or the god they have chosen toput their faith in. to
be faced with something one does not understand isalways terrifying,