really dare to express them to other people. As I mentioned before,
when I was younger I would sometimes forget that I’masian, so when I
thought about asian stereotypes, I never really feltthat they applied to
me. It was more during high school when I startedto think more about
my ethnicity, that I thought “oh maybe they thinkI’m really smart
because I’m asian”. That has made me feel a bit, oractually a lot
insecure because I’ve never felt that I have beenthat smart or
intelligent in my life, quite the opposite, I feellike I can be quite slow
or confused a lot, and in a way that has made me feelunsure about
myself and question why I am the way I am. I wouldhave thoughts like
“why am I not as intelligent/smart like that person?”,or more feel like
people expected things from me.
A theoretical space without racism.
I don’t really know if I would do anything different.I don’t think I’ve
personally experienced that much racism in my life(that I’ve been
aware of), most of the things I’ve experienced havebeen internal stuff
I’ve had against myself but I’m not sure if that’sbeen influenced by
racism around me.
Tbh, I can’t really picture a world (space) withoutracism, I don’t know
why but it’s hard to imagine. But I hope that we oneday soon can reach
a place where racism no longer exists (or at leasthas decreased).
Tell.
I would say during this entire interview, I’ve sharedmore about myself
than I ever done with anybody. This interview hasmade me reflect a lot
about myself and my inner thoughts, what ethnicitymeans to me and
what it can mean to other people.
Correct.
Regarding the name, it’s okey to use it but I wantto change it to my
Chinese name, Andan instead if that’s okey. OtherwiseI don’t think I
have anything else to add/correct. .
To someone.
It sounds really corny but I would say that the peoplethat has
motivated me and inspired me the most when it comesto embracing
myself and accepting who I am, would probably be BTS.It’s hard to put
into words but they are a big reason to why I’ve startedto step by step
embrace myself more and love myself for who I am.懶
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