Chapter One Hundred Thirty-Eight
All Things Are Difficult Before They Are Easy
My broken pieces
You pick them up
Don't leave me hanging, hanging
Come give me some
When I'm without ya
I'm so insecure
You are the one thing, one thing
I'm living for
(Sugar - Maroon 5)October 13th, 1998Sirius stared awkwardly at Mia, whose gaze was so intense that he briefly forgot
what he had just said. It was not until she cleared her throat and blinked rapidly in mild
shock that he remembered.
Contraceptive Charm, right.
"What do you mean?" she asked hesitantly.
He ran an anxious hand through his hair and sighed. "I mean don't... don't...
cast it."
"Sirius―"
"Look," he said, interrupting her. "I know that to you everything was different just
a few weeks ago, and we were in the middle of a war, and everything was insane, but...
but you left, and Lily got pregnant and.. ."
He frowned, remembering the morning that she had woken them all up after a night
of binge drinking to scold them for their behaviour and to tell James that she was pregnant.
Sirius had felt torn in that moment of celebration. Thrilled for his friends, his family, but
the absence of Mia and the plans and dreams they had shared left him with a missing piece
of his soul that made any potential future without her unbearable to even think about.
"Sirius, look at me," Mia whispered.
He brought his gaze back to her face and tilted his head into her palm, turning to
kiss her fingers. "I thought you were dead and any dream of the future died with you."
She smiled sweetly. "You dreamt of having a litter of little Potters?"