the_debt_of_time

"She's been using me too! She uses me to forget about you, because you're too stupid
to see that she wanted you first, and you fucked it up!" Remus snapped, his eyes turning
golden. The smallest part of Sirius told him that it would be smart to be afraid, but he was
too stubborn to care.
Sirius cursed Remus's recent growth spurt and his own poor genes that kept him
shorter than his friend. Remus took a step forward, forcing him to take a cautionary step
backward as the common ground was taken from him.
"So, I go to her, and I'm with her, and I take care of her while she waits for you to
figure out what it is that you bloody want from her! I'm there so she doesn't have to be
alone, 'cause Merlin knows you never have to worry about that!"
Sirius tried to defend himself. "I haven't even touched another girl since―"
"Since Marlene on Valentine's Day?" Remus growled, eyebrows raised. "Yeah, Mia
told me about that. Came to me crying her bloody eyes out. You are not supposed to hurt
her! It's our job to protect her!"
"I know that, Moony!" Sirius yelled, throwing his glass down on the floor and feeling
a sense of short-lived enjoyment when it shattered. "I'm trying!"
Remus glared at him. "How are you trying?"
"I'm screwed up, mate." Sirius sighed, running a hand over his face. "I'm... I'm
protecting her from me. But fuck, I can't keep away from that girl. It's like she's... like
she's mine, and my body and soul knows it," he said, pounding his fist against his chest
angrily.
He knew it. He knew she was his, and he needed to be with her, but then he thought
of his family and the sick and twisted way his parents had looked at him during his last
visit. He had seen the way Bellatrix had looked at Mia when threatened. He could not
expose her to his family. It was too dangerous.
"But my brain keeps telling me that I'm never going to be good enough for her. So,
I try and keep away, because it's better." He sucked in a deep breath to calm his nerves
only to have Mia's lingering scent of arousal in the air flood his senses. "I wouldn't have if
I knew she was just going to go running to your bed!"
"You stupid mutt," Remus snarled.
Sirius glared up at Remus. "Bloody fucking wolf."