both, I suppose—but I became a devoted
convert. I devoured books about young-
earth creationism, and joined online chat
rooms to challenge scientists on the
theory of evolution. I learned about
millennialist prophecy and convinced
myself that the world would end in
- I even threw away my Black
 Sabbath CDs. Dad’s church encouraged
 all of this because it doubted the wisdom
 of secular science and the morality of
 secular music.
 Despite the lack of a legal
 relationship, I began spending a lot of
 time with Dad. I visited him on most
 holidays and spent every other weekend
 at his house. Though I loved seeing
