over this argument. I finally convinced Betty that if anything ever happened to me, the Nation of
Islam would take care of her for the rest of her life, and of our children until they were grown. I
could never have been a bigger fool!
In every radio or television appearance, in every newspaper interview, I always made it crystal
clear that I was Mr. Muhammad's representative. Anyone who ever heard me make a public
speech during this time knows that at least once a minute I said, "The Honorable Elijah
Muhammad teaches-" I would refuse to talk with any person who ever tried any so-called "joke"
about my constant reference to Mr. Muhammad. Whenever anyone said, or wrote, "Malcolm X,
the number two Black Muslim-" I would recoil. I have called up reporters and radio and television
newscasters long-distance and asked them never to use that phrasing again, explaining to them:
"All Muslims are number two-after Mr. Muhammad."
My briefcase was stocked with Mr. Muhammad's photographs. I gave them to photographers who
snapped my picture. I would telephone editors asking them, "Please use Mr. Muhammad's picture
instead of mine." When, to my joy, Mr. Muhammad agreed to grant interviews to white writers, I
rarely spoke to a white writer, or a black one either, whom I didn't urge to visit Mr. Muhammad in
person in Chicago-"Get the truth from the Messenger in person"-and a number of them did go
there and meet and interview him.
Both white people and Negroes-even including Muslims-would make me uncomfortable, always
giving me so much credit for the steady progress that theNation of Islam was making. "All praise
is due to Allah," I told everybody. "Anything creditable that I do is due to Mr. Elijah Muhammad."
I believe that no man in the Nation of Islam could have gained the international prominence I
gained with the wings Mr. Muhammad had put on me-plus having the freedom that he granted me
to take liberties and do things on my own-and still have remained as faithful and as selfless a
servant to him as I was.
I would say that it was in 1962 when I began to notice that less and less about me appeared in
our Nation's Muhammad Speaks. I learned that Mr. Muhammad's son, Herbert, now the
paper's publisher, had instructed that as little as possible be printed about me. In fact, there was
more in the Muslim paper about integrationist Negro "leaders" than there was about me. I could
read more about myself in the European, Asian, and African press.
I am not griping about publicity for myself. I already had received more publicity than many world
personages. But I resented the fact that the Muslims' own newspaper denied them news of
important things being done in their behalf, simply because it happened that I had done the
things. I was conducting rallies, trying to propagate Mr. Muhammad's teachings, and because of
jealousy and narrow-mindedness finally I got no coverage at all-for by now an order had been
given to completely black me out of the newspaper. For instance, I spoke to eight thousand
students at the University of California, and the press there gave big coverage to what I said of
the power and program of Mr. Muhammad. But when I got to Chicago, expecting at least a
favorable response and some coverage, I met only a chilly reaction. The same thing happened
when, in Harlem, I staged a rally that drew seven thousand people. At that time, Chicago
headquarters was even discouraging me from staging large rallies. But the next week, I held
another Harlem rally that was even bigger and more successfulthan the first one-and obviously
this only increased the envy of the Chicago headquarters.
But I would put these things out of my mind, as they occurred.
At least, as much as I humanly could, I put them out of my mind. I am not trying to make myself
seem right and noble. I am telling the truth. I loved the Nation, and Mr. Muhammad. I lived
for the Nation, and for Mr. Muhammad.
It made other Muslim officials jealous because my picture was often in the daily press. They