enjoy this? No. He told himself that film school was
distracting him from his real job of finding another job. And
so he gave up filmmaking to look for another job.
Two years later, remembering this incident, Mike can
shake his head at himself. When the universe gave him what
he wanted, he gave the gift right back. Eventually, he did let
himself learn filmmaking, but he made it a lot harder on
himself than the universe may have intended.
One of the things most worth noting in a creative
recovery is our reluctance to take seriously the possibility
that the universe just might be cooperating with our new and
expanded plans. We’ve gotten brave enough to try
recovery, but we don’t want the universe to really pay
attention. We still feel too much like frauds to handle some
success. When it comes, we want to go.
Of course we do! Any little bit of experimenting in self-
nurturance is very frightening for most of us. When our little
experiment provokes the universe to open a door or two, we
start shying away. “Hey! You! Whatever you are! Not so
fast!”
Think of yourself as an incandescent power,
illuminated and perhaps forever talked to by God and
his messengers.
BRENDA UELANDNo matter how slow the film,
Spirit always stands still long