mourn   the wounding    he  had endured as  a   young   writer. He
had to  make    his peace   with    the lost    years   this    wounding    had
cost    him.    A   page    at  a   time,   a   day at  a   time,   he  had to  slowly
build   strength.
Like    the career  of  any athlete,    an  artist’s    life    will    have    its
injuries.   These    go  with    the     game.  The  trick   is  to  survive
them,   to  learn   how to  let yourself    heal.   Just    as  a   player  who
ignores  a   sore    muscle  may     tear    it  further,    an  artist  who
buries   his     pain    over    losses  will    ultimately  cripple     himself
into     silence.    Give    yourself    the     dignity     of  admitting   your
artistic    wounds. That    is  the first   step    in  healing them.
No  inventory   of  our artistic    injuries    would   be  complete
without acknowledging   those   wounds  that    are self-inflicted.
Many    times,  as  artists,    we  are offered a   chance  that    we  balk
at, sabotaged   by  our fear,   our low self-worth, or  simply  our
other   agendas.
Grace    is  offered     an  art     scholarship     in  another     city    but
doesn’t  want    to  leave   Jerry,  her     boyfriend.  She     turns   the
scholarship down.
Jack    is  offered a   dream   job in  his field   in  a   faraway city.
It’s    a   great   job but he  turns   it  down    because of  all the friends
and family  he  has where   he  is.
Angela  gets    terrible    reviews in  a   terrible    play    and is  then
offered  another     lead    in  a   challenging     play.   She     turns   it
down.
These   lost    chances often   haunt   us  bitterly    in  later   years.
We   will    work    more    extensively     later   with    our     artistic    U-
turns,  but for now,    just    counting    them    as  losses  begins  the
                    
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