'inner' spaces, in which I feel led down, deep deep within.
Mahakali, while I sing her mantra, brings me to smile ever
so broadly, straightening my inner posture and bringing a
most clear, vital and shining light. She is the awakener and
the assurance of my beingness, confidently she embodies
all of my individuality. Shiva on the other hand, is the
awareness beholder of my whole existence – touching and
being my deepest source. What I experience as his majestic
earnestness, most tender and serenely vibrating facial
expression – not yet smiling – floods out of his awareness-
presence to offer me the most silent lasting peace. I drink
within this silence an ever a-newing power, where he
beholds each atom at its space-time-spot, eliciting new
sounds of silence within this space and time, and with them
new colours of light, all womb-like and hidden.
The transformations on Shiva’s face photographed by
Acharya during puja are more than remarkable, truly
amazingly powerful and telling. It shows that there is not
the slightest separation, no gap to be bridged between
awareness and all that is manifestly forming as the
touchable and visible – which is an expressiveness of the
inner sound and inner silence where light and breath meet
within this actualising world, creating it every second anew,
afresh and different.
After midnight, very late last night while sitting down at
the shrine, it was within the very first moment – looking at