too late in life. Put it in this way: I have added a little of Reich to S'hill
whereas to make S'hill a complete orgonotic-orgastic school would mean
a new basis entirely. So that when you ask me to take part in the new
journal editing, I get a little afraid that I am not the one to propagate
sex-economy views with complete sincerity. Some of my self-distrust
comes from my experience of veg.-therapy with adolescents here. One
by one as things got nearer to vital repressions they stopped coming.
Don't know how much I was to blame, but therapy must be desired by
the patient every time obviously. But I can see that your new journal
will not be a therapeutic one; it will be creative for the future rather
than trying to clean up messes from the past. That sort of journal I could
of course help with. Let me know what plans you all make. lch werde
mitmachen [count me in]!
We came back here in Sept. and it was a big task, an exhausting one
too. But it is so delightful to be back again that all the trouble is for
gotten by now. Much has to be repaired after 5 years of army occupa
tion. At Christmas we celebrate our Jubilee, for it was Xmas 1921 that
I began in Hellerau, Dresden. 25 years of kids is a long time, but I am
still fresh, although I am not so patient of their noise as I used to be, and
have had my part of the house partitioned off for quietness.
Wood is still severely rationed, but I can buy one pound's worth per
month, and now see my way to building an Akku.
P.S. Like you I am burdened with work that doesn't interest me. A
popular Sunday paper had picture of S'hill and I had 150 letters mostly
from working people asking if I'd have their children. I had to answer
every one myself. They don't ask me to broadcast now but when I did
I spent weeks answering letters. That and interviewing government
officials, builders, gardeners, etc. fills too much of my day. Just an
office boy I am.
. I.
Forest Hills, New York
December 19 , 19 45
My dear Neill:
Yesterday I received your new book H earts Not Heads. I
began to read it immediately and found it, contrary to your opinion, not
only extremely interesting but very important. I agree with you on nearly
every step you take, but there is a great But which not only concerns