Record of a Friendship

(Ben Green) #1
Orgonon
Rangeley , Maine

My dear Neill:

[late June or early July 1946]

I have your letter of June 19th. The things you say about
one's worries in regard to the future fate of one's labor are so very true.
I can understand them perfectly, being in a similar position. One's
disciples are apt to split their head mutually over who is the best fol­
lower. It often happened that it was just an apparent opponent who
really carries on ... but his way, and not mine or your way. I believe
your school as such will not continue. But it will stand for all times as
an example of what education should be. And that is more than the
walls and the kids in it. As to Orgonon, I intend to establish a scientific
research foundation carrying my name (it seems vain but the name
promises stability to certain central ideas! !), a foundation which will
house the whole archive and will be devoted to Orgone Science. Should
my son grow into it, all the better. But otherwise my children should
build up their own lives.
On May 28th I became an American Citizen "with the privilege to
vote and to function as a juror." I told the officer that I hope to be of
more important service by taking the constitution wortlich [literally]. I
am glad to have a passport again.
Barakan came. Seems quite a clever fellow, but I shall have to clean
up his soul quite a bit too.
I want you to come over here by all means. So much has to be talked
over. It should be possible, shouldn't it?
The Org. Reft. diminishes of course in later years. But so also the
desire, and all is calm if the life was and is running fully as yours. The
Org. Accum. will do to you what it did to Hamilton: make you tanned
and give you pep. Now you are sure to have one and to use it by
autumn.
I had a nasty letter from Philipson again. The man mistakes lack of
respect for freedom. The whole Scandinavian situation is a mess. I am
learning more and more about the lack of ability in people to function
freely and cooperatively, to the point of despairing of human freedom.
I would like to get away from psychiatry of sick messed-up people.
They are hopeless. I prefer to work with Bions and Earths and life
energy and seeds, that is, with undistorted life. As to the Orgone: It
is too early for people to write about it. It upsets the second law of
thermodynamics and does away with too many wrong assumptions and

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