missed then. * Our art teacher is away and I have been in charge of the
art room, painting with the children, but realising that I couldn't do
anything so good as they did; my painting was sophisticated, more or
less conscious and stylised, while theirs was straight from the soul and of
course brilliant. I am-say-a Royal Academy formal painter, while
each child is a van Gogh. Your description of your painting makes me
think you have "regressed" to the Gogh stage.
Correspondence is so difficult. You write of OIRC [Orgonomic Infant
Research Center] and its work but I have no details and can't imagine
what is done with newborn infants. Dammit, man, you didn't do any
thing with Peter newborn, did you? And he seems wonderful. So is
Zoe. However, I keep hoping the method will come out in a Bulletin.
How to meet you again worries me. I'll apply again for a visa when
I return from Norway. Then I'll try to get a visa to visit you either at
Christmas or in the spring. I'd hoped to be able to show the visa people
two published articles showing that S'hill was the antithesis of com
munist moulding of youth. The trouble is that although progressive
papers are anti-communism, they aren't pro self-regulation or pro sex.
Indeed I often wonder why there is so much antagonism between the
West and East, for fundamentally they seem to share so many factors
in common, e.g. the moulding of infants, the sex taboo, the Oedipus
family. Stalin's rules for school children would have the complete ap
proval of 90 % of British teachers. Possibly that is why I can't get
articles published. As for a visa, my hopes of this are very dim indeed.
It is so frustrating. I need you and I know you need me in some ways,
and we are separated by a futile suspicion.
Love from us all, and we hope that Ilse's operation was a success.
Orgonon
Rangeley , Maine
My dear Neill:
- I •
June 22nd, 1951I have your letter of June 1 !th. The revolution in my life
and work is very deep going. I am not despairing of humanity, and I
am not running away into painting and music making. I am just begin-
- At this point, there is a fierce underlining of Reich's and, in the margin, the
comment "I had it."