Then when I heard and knew the love that is still given to you I had
to face the question: Why do I give out love and get much love in
return while Reich gives out so much love and gets so many Barakans
in return? Is it that people feel that I am a simple guy, not very clever,
not very original, a guy that most ordinary folks can understand, while
you are so far ahead of the ordinary man, so creative that you are al
ways a step ahead or a few miles ahead, a man to whom to attach awe
and wonder... and envy? I am ignoring unconscious drives etc. p1!r
posely, for they don't mean much here. We can guess that St Paul
spent much of his time trying not to think of fornication, but we can't
even guess if Jesus had any interest in Mary's figure. Motives be
damned, I say; we must look at hard facts. I can't even guess the truth.
Here you have two pioneer affairs: Summerhill, disapproved of by the
Blimps, of course, but if hated I don't see the evidence. We get staff who
stay for years or who have to be sacked for neurosis or incompetency,
but none of them become enemies and work against the school. On
the other side Orgonon with helpers wanting to rival you and improve
on your work. (I've had that too, but mainly from obvious climbers and
incompetents, and seldom with anything like hate or fear.) Do I
tolerate more than you do? Do you demand wholly allegiance? I have
never accepted your judgment of the world's opposition to your work,
and the sales of your books would show that the world isn't so hide
bound as you think. We are both apt to think everyone is gegen uns
[against us]. When I lectured last week in Birmingham a teacher said
afterwards: "You don't seem to know that things have moved in State
schools during the last years; there is much more freedom in them than
you think."
In writing all this seems bald, leaving so much out that a couple of
ryes would make clear. But, alas, I can't see that meeting. It is useless
for me to apply for a visa again, and unless someone or some body can
apply to London on my behalf I haven't the chance of a snowflake in
hell.
You say that Wolfe has been out of the work for 5 years ... but he
was in it when we were over.
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