Self-Realization and Other Awakenings

have a tiger by the tail and you cannot let go because
he will eat you.
Student Number One:
It all sounds distasteful, but then, what are the
options? I think, "I don't want to do this to the people
in my life," but then automatically the question comes
up, "Who are these people? Where did they come from,
if not my mind? Who am I?" It's a circle. What is the
alternative to seeking the truth: subscribing to life in a
house of cards that will always be unsatisfying and
inevitably collapse? So, one must soldier on.
Number Two:
Maybe this is what Jesus was referring to when he
stated, "If any man be in Christ, he is a new creation;
old things have passed away and behold all things have
become new."
It is that process of the 'old' things passing away
and having no idea of the 'new' that is the shocker. In
the middle of it, there is just falling away, loss, and
nothing 'new' is experienced as of yet.
No books I have ever read prepared me for what I
am going through.
The rebellion, the doubt, confusion, intense
anxiety, paralyzing fear, terror, despair, relationships