Self-Realization and Other Awakenings

was not at the center of my sense of being. I witnessed
my ‘I-sense’, but it was distant and not me-
pleasurable, but not me.
But this morning I felt it as a strong pull to go
within, to immerse myself into the deepest part of
myself: deep, deep below the level of surface
consciousness. I felt pulled down inside and it was
impossible to resist the call of Self, of the sense of
me, which is really the state of Turiya shining through
the ignorance; the darkness and Void of the Causal
Body, through the intellect, mind and sense
perceptions of the subtle body, and of course, entirely
separate from this physical body of Ed.
It was as if I had been lost in a fog of appearance,
and the “real me” of the ‘I Am’ emerged out of the
fog: much like the brilliant beam from a lighthouse is
suddenly observed from a few hundred yards away
when there is a brief break in the fog.
Yes, I am THAT I AM!
The feeling is really indescribable in words.
I felt a great happiness and joy, but not on the
surface. It was a joy buried deep within myself,
deeper than the mind, deeper than the darkness of
deep sleep, or the sleepiness of the dream state. Yes,
the real ‘me’ was shining through all those more