Self-Realization and Other Awakenings

Sometimes the energies flow intensely for days or
weeks (or years) at a time. One becomes
incapacitated. Feeling the bliss and orgasms, one’s
attention to the external world ceases. The inner
world work of the energies and bliss is so captivating
that one becomes useless in the world.
Chores do not get done. Children and spouses are
ignored. One’s ability to maintain employment is
severely compromised. One is beginning to be aware
of the bliss of the Self.
Then the struggle begins to continue to remain in
the external world. One feels guilty for ignoring the
children and fear arises for their continued
employment. One begins to do all sorts of things to
bring these energies and “attachment” to the ecstasies
and orgasms under control, but to no avail.
Once you have been bitten by the ecstasies and
orgasms, they will stay and bug you until you stop
trying to control them. Just let them pass through.
Force yourself to work and pay attention to the kids
when you can, but other times, go off by yourself and
let the energies flow.
Along with the energies and orgasms, comes the
arising of all kinds of intense emotions, from anger and
hate, to the most sublime forms of love, surrender,
and peace. One begins to oscillate between poles of