Self-Realization and Other Awakenings

as such, you move beyond a body-identification
towards an identification with consciousness itself.
However, the most difficult “annoyance” that
occurs to most who are experiencing sensitivity to
these inner movements, is the arising of some
extremely painful emotions and often terrifying
hallucinations, and great fear. There is fear of being
destroyed, or fear of going insane because these
experiences are so unlike anything you experienced
before.
There is often jealousy as you associate the love or
ecstasies you feel as having an object source outside
of you, a lover, a guru, or God, and you feel your
ecstasies and orgasms can be taken away if that
external representation of your own true Self, even
looks at another person, or does not pay enough
attention to you. There is an intense regression to
being a two or a four year old level of personality.
Now you are even less engaged in the world and
you feel guiltier for being so child-like and dependent.
But you see, you are being prepared for a new life,
one centered in your own beingness and heart as
opposed to living from a role and concepts.
Utilizing the spontaneous sexual energies and non-
sexual energy flows within the body and one's sense of