Self-Realization and Other Awakenings

this? Why do I believe X but not the teacher, or why
do I believe the teacher and not X?”
The source of the need to run away is in you, why
do you run? Can you just stay with the feelings and
not run or not create stories to justify the urge to run
or strike out?
You see, in our Sangha, like with Robert’s, or
Ramana’s, or with Nisargadatta, most people are just
passing through. So don’t worry about what is wrong
with the teacher or with the Sangha, because
consciousness is directing everything. You, Robert and I
are just small cogs in an unlimited, infinite unfolding
of consciousness, and all of our “huge” problems are
not even pimples to God.
Yet, because of the apparent hugeness of our
problems, we do not trust the unfolding process, and
when our problems are not solved, we often fixate on
the teacher’s failures that have caused us to not
progress and go free. It becomes his fault, not ours or
that of consciousness itself; it becomes the Sangha’s
fault, not ours or that of consciousness itself and the
role assigned to us by the grand unfolding. We make up
stories that block our own self-inquiry and deepening,
and then we run away from the cooking we ourselves
are creating in association with God and guru.