no such concern. That got completely wiped out in
- Wherever this body is moved that is where it
goes and there is a complete knowingness that all will
always be taken care of. I live with absolutely no
money, no security, no stability - and I am 50 years old.
How I live would give most people a heart attack.
Even those who say they are awake.
So what does awake really mean, when
existential fears for one's safety and security are on
the top of one's priority in actual lived daily life?
Please help me understand this whole awakening
and awake thing as I seem to be seeing something
others do not talk about. I came at it from a whole
other angle, having had no clue about awakening or
enlightenment. Slowly, I am piecing things together on
my own, through having read some awake people's
writings, through many discussions with Dr. Michael
Hall and of course, how life keeps moving through me.
But I don't have a handle on it because how things are
for me are so completely different from what all other
awake people talk about. I keep being moved every
three months to a new place. Just the other day, I
saved someone from getting murdered. The stuff that
I seem to be moved to be present for, witness and see
in actual life, no awake person has any clue. It seems
that life places this body into these situations,
seemingly as a test to find out where programming is