The Absolute, the Void, and Identification..............................
While investigating deeply for years through
meditative introspection, I found that the ‘I-thought’
actually pointed to nothing; there was no inner entity
that the ‘I-thought’ pointed towards. Inside there was
only emptiness, a vast inner space illuminated by its
own light, which acted as a container for all kinds of
mental objects, emotions and internal “energies.”
After awakening, It was so easy to mistake this
self-illumined emptiness as the Self, as ‘I’.
But it is not. It is still an experience occurring to a
witnessing principle entirely beyond the world of
existence: the unmanifest, the noumena, the Absolute,
the ultimate subject, sometimes referred to as one’s
unborn, true nature.
The ‘I-thought’, instead of pointing to an object, a
‘me’, actually pointed to the feeling ‘I-Am’, which, in
turn, pointed to something completely different from
a psychological or spiritual entity. It pointed to the
subject of everything, the subject of all experience
and knowledge, the Self, which was universal, and
which is the Self of all.
The freedom I found in my awakening experience
revealed that there was no inner objective entity, that