she felt nothing from me, that she could not find a
person inside, only emptiness, and kept looking for my
core.
We parked overlooking the ocean at a spot where I
often photographed sea birds.
Suddenly, without a word spoken, she laid her head
on my left shoulder and chest. And for the first time in
memory, I felt a fire alight in my heart. The words
came to me at the moment from the chant Jyota Se
Jyota Jagavo, “Kindle my heart’s flame with Thy
flame; Oh Sadguru kindle my heart’s flame with
thine.”
The whole situation was so strange. I thought this
was something that happened to 15-year-olds. It was
as if she had thrown herself at my feet in surrender,
and I was touched deeply.
So we shared that, a love of the Infinite; for her it
was love of God, of presence, not of emptiness. She
talked to God, and God talked to her. She told God she
was lonely, and later she said God sent her to me to be
loved by me.
We were together just a few hours, but a seed was
born.
We wrote to each other, we phoned each other, and
finally Skyped each other, sometimes for hours a day.
darren dugan
(Darren Dugan)
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