Self-Realization and Other Awakenings

And this person 'kissed alive my dead days'. And
now I am in deep anguish and a feeling of such loss. He
has moved on. I feel so deeply alone and deserted.
Some days, there is a quiet acceptance of all things
but mostly a deep and unfathomable craving to be
with this person; just trying to live. My heart feels so
very broken, so shattered.
I tend to be very intense and very vulnerable in
love. And I think I have scared away this person, even
though I 'gave' all the freedom to him. I never held
him, never made rules for him; I even helped him to
decide to meet an old girlfriend of his whom I knew he
felt like meeting.
I feel like a schizophrenic person - one part of me
longs, pines away for him and the other part of me
made choices that helped him go his way. I don’t even
know how to explain this.
I don't know how closure can happen here. How
does it all heal? I just felt like talking to you;
something so kind in your face.
My Response:
You have made a tremendous discovery. Much of
spirituality ends in deadness. After 15 years of
spiritual practices, which I assume means meditation
and reading about non-attachment, and going into