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Jesus. He might help me, she said. The most mysterious
thing, which astonished me after this encounter was: why
did a Christian come to find me when I was going to
become a Buddhist nun? It didn't make sense. If God
existed, he must send a Buddhist to me. Then I participated
in a meditation training to discover the reason.
In a huge meditation hall in front of a pure white
Buddha statue made of marble, I meditated and posed a
question: Would I acquire salvation, if I continue meditating
for my whole life? Suddenly, I understood that there is no
guarantee to gain salvation this way. To oppress your
tensions and desires by entering into an empty world the
Buddhist way, either you will spend a whole life in this
empty meditation hall, or you will be born again. It seems to
me more evident that you need to desire the salvation,
before you are saved. I didn't want to be born again into the
same miserable life. I wanted be saved totally, immediately,
and not gradually. I recognized I needed a savior and could
not save myself by my own endeavor. Abruptly, a voice was
talking to me: “I am the way and the truth and the life.”
Jesus had revealed himself to me.
After this enlightenment I departed for Japan. Before
my baptism I dreamed of Jesus and He comforted me: “You
should trust in this Japanese family and will spend a while
with them.” Eventually, I stayed one year with this family
that I never knew before. I didn't pay them any money.
They said, not we but God feeds you. With little money but
a lot of hope, I returned to Germany and continued seeking
a harbor to lay my anchor. Shortly after my arrival, I
encountered my husband Markus. He was the answer from
God. I once was lost, but now I’m found. Once I was
homeless and now I have a family. Once I was on a
pointless trip, but now I am traveling in America with a
stable anchor in my life. More than a solution for my
difficulty, He gave me the eternal life and let me know the
ultimate solution in life is believing in Jesus Christ.
Yi-fen Flaig is a student at Adult & Community Education.