192 Who Do You Think You Are?
that is emitted in the moment of choice is elating, it’s blissful, and it is,
I imagine, what we believe heaven, the divine, or abundance to be. It’s
about choice.
We are pure potentiality taking on human form so that we can
experience ourselves as creator (God source energy in the body), with
the opportunity to experience what we choose. Just for the feeling of it.
Just for the experience.
What event or series of events led to your discovery?
I grew up in the environment of natural health care. I grew up in an
environment that spoke toward empowerment on an emotional level and
intellectual level. It was definitely in the choice arena about what you do
with your health, and the basic premise that the body has the ability to
heal itself rather than being medicated or surgically altered.There’s a
reason if the body isn’t healing itself, there’s a reason for it. We would
do ourselves a great favor to be in search of the cause of why the body
isn’t healing itself, rather than to seek out the next best treatment for the
symptoms that result from the fact that the body isn’t operating as it was
designed and intended.
Growing up in that environment, I knew that there was a natural
flow, that there is a grand plan, that all things really are intended to work
out. For instance, I’ve never taken a medication for an ailment. I’ve never
had a cold and gone to the doctor, received an antibiotic and taken it. It’s
just never happened in my 46 years. I know that the body can heal itself,
yet I was riddled with stress, internally and on an emotional level. I was
not at peace and I was really struggling to find my own application of
that on a personal level, on an emotional basis more than anything, and
so I sought out meditation. I sought out a lot of things that our culture
would define as aids in that department.
I had some experiences, multidimensional experiences, through
meditation that completely shifted my perception of what is real, and
who we are. It didn’t come easy. I was a perfectionist, and I wanted to
learn how to meditate right. I was in a room with 300 other meditators
who had been meditating for 30 years. I was constantly doing what I did
at the time, which was judge myself, and I assumed that I wasn’t doing it
right. I practiced, tried it, looked around, made sure I was sitting right
and breathing right and doing all these things in a perfectionist kind of
way.