Who do you think you are?

Are You Here To Be A Healer? 193
I exhausted myself at a particular meditation event to the degree
that I couldn’t worry about it anymore. I just couldn’t think about it
anymore. I had asked to help at this event, so I was up all night and all
day running around trying to make the event happen correctly. After the
third day, my mental capacity was exhausted from only getting an hour
of sleep a night. I went into the main ballroom where the event was
taking place and I just sat down and decided to chant with everyone else
and stop worrying about it. In that process I had a life altering experience,
with high frequency light, and it completely changed my version of reality.
I experienced myself as a self that was not in the body.
It took me several months, if not years, to integrate that. I’m still
integrating all of the implications of that experience. During this process,
I experience a stillness that allows me to see that everything happening
in my life, without exception, is in service to the unfoldment of my
realization that this is the true me. That the temporal circumstances of
my daily life, the ups and downs, the successes and the disappointments,
are all part of the unfoldment which is offered to us with great grace. It is
all pointing us in the direction of a realized notion that we have the
capacity to utilize this life experience as a playground of adventure and
discovery. When we see every event from that perspective, we are set
free.
I see even the most challenging events as the opportunity to grow
into remembrance. I don’t really know how else to say it, except that it is
to allow me to remember that I do have choice in the face of every
situation, and when I exercise that choice, I experience myself settled
and empowered, so that the degree of freedom far exceeds the challenge.
I am no longer in a tunnel, controlled by the circumstances. I can see a
much broader explanation of why these things are occurring, and how
they are serving my own personal empowerment.
All of the events that have occurred in my life since that meditation
experience have been looked at with that perspective. The most beautiful
and amazing thing about it is that every single event since then has pointed
towards my freedom, towards my empowerment, and it keeps escalating.
So much so that even as potentially devastating things occur in my life,
I don’t see them in that way. I allow myself to feel the experience.