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sense oF selFDuring periods of accelerated spiritual growth when there is a rapid shift in the sense
of self the main adjustments we need to make are adaptation to the:
- Loss of a rigid sense of the known
- Loss of the sense of sure identity
- The sense of infinity, space, groundlessness and emptiness
- Loss of routine habits
- Amplification of sensory acuity
- Magnification of or loss of appetites
- Increased psychic and subtle abilities
- Greater range and depth of emotion and feeling
- Changes in one’s sense of energy and embodiment
- Distortions in the sense of time
Kundalini threatens the safety focused conditioned self because there is no
place to hide from truth, for the brightening Eye of God is within us. Truth is
healing and healing is truth. Depending on how well we can let go of the past and
be restructured in the moment through cellular forgiveness, this determines our
ability to substantiate spiritual growth. However the irony is that, supersensory
ability withstanding, one has to become meta-adapted to a spiritually corrupt
world—this is the challenge, to not react negatively to negativity, or in other words
to fear no evil. If we listen very carefully Kundalini teaches us how to do this, but
we have to be willing to experience earth shattering bliss and the full implications
of our higher purpose and place in the whole. We must be willing to fully feel the
call to spiritual action!
Unfortunately kundalini has been associated with symbols such as the serpent
and so non-awakeners might relegate it to the mere physical domain. But one
is never so close to Spirit than during a kundalini awakening. Kundalini is an
amplification of Spirit in flesh. This is one of the reasons why post-awakening
life seems so lack luster for the tide of Spirit has nearly returned to the socially
conditioned acceptable level. And the individual still feels the echo of the calling
to a sense of humanity that is beyond our wildest dreams, but there is nowhere to
put this in our consensus “fallen” world. On feeling the depths of ones fear and
helplessness there is less need to prevent these in others, one realizes that it’s all
good and it’s all ok.
To the degree that we get rid of the parasite of the defense system (the safety
addicted conditioned self ) that we created from day zero, this is the degree to
which we can access our higher self. Kundalini is involuntary parasite killing, for
it dissolves our pupal defense strategy, yet it doesn’t automatically mean that we
suddenly have the skills to deal with our world in a higher fashion, we essentially
have to grow those through deeper insight.