The Writing Experiment by Hazel Smith

(Jos van der Sman) #1
She glares back at me
warningly.
She says, ‘I’m bitterly disappointed.’

Then she says,
‘You’re lucky.’

I turn my eyes.
Even sideways I still catch glimpses
of clenched jaws, pursed lips
hurt senses.

‘I’m most upset.
You can’t survive,’ she says
‘without deep resentment.’

‘The Mirror’ (McMaster 1994, p. 121)

In this (fairly conventional but strong) poem the mirror is used as a way
of thinking about identity and our genetic and familial heritage. The
speaker looks into the mirror of her life hoping to see herself, but only
finds the dominating presence of her mother and her own unwelcome
likeness to her. The poem exploits the mirror image to convey the power
struggle between mother and daughter, and to challenge the ideological
assumption that such relationships are close and harmonious. But the
mirror also symbolises the tension between the burden of our heritage and
the potential of what we can achieve.
The mirror image often appears in novels. In the following extract from
American writer Carson McCullers’s The Heart is a Lonely Hunter , the
mirror symbolises the ambivalence of memory, and Biff ’s reassessment of
his identity, when the death of his wife ends their dull, limited yet secure
marriage:


Example 1.24
Biff uncorked the bottle. He stood shirtless before the mirror and
dabbed some of the perfume on his dark, hairy armpits. The scent
made him stiffen. He exchanged a deadly secret glance with himself
in the mirror and stood motionless. He was stunned by the
memories brought to him with the perfume, not because of their
clarity, but because they gathered together the whole long span of
years and were complete. Biff rubbed his nose and looked sideways
at himself. The boundary of death. He felt in him each minute that

Playing with language, running with referents 21
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