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I often get intrigued by seekers who say that
they do not believe in having a guru. That they
can reach their destination by listening to their
inner sadguru alone. Perhaps they are right
because the aim of any guru too, is to connect
you with your own inner Master. But from the
very beginning, I knew that I needed to have a
guru, since the spiritual path had opened up
for me in a very challenging way.
All of a sudden, I was exposed to such high
vibrations that it was impossible for me to
make sense of what was happening to me.
Multiple dimensions would open up before me,
and I would go bonkers trying to figure them
out. Secondly, I also needed an authority figure
who could validate my experiences to me,
since nothing that I was going through could
be found mentioned in the scriptures. Was I
going crazy? Was I hallucinating?
In those acutely trying times, if hope and
solace came from somewhere, it was from the
Masters. Though I had not been able to find my
guru, I would connect deeply with the Masters
of the kriya yoga tradition on an energetic level
to seek guidance and protection. I never felt
that they were not in body anymore. Every time
I read their books, they would come alive to
me. I could feel a distinct energy around me,
which came directly from them. I remember
having simply spoken to their photograph in
my room and getting my wish fulfilled by them.
But I was not satisfied by this alone. I wanted
to be at the feet of a living Master. And I
wanted to be trained by him. I wanted to enjoy
the guru-disciple relationship. But nothing
materialised for a long time. Frustrated, I gave
up. I realised that there was nothing to life
except this moment, to live fully, and all the
JOURNEYThere is no greater discovery than finding a living Master who can help you navigate
the troubled waters of life, says Shivi VermaThe joy of having a guru
rest was mere sentimentality.
Interestingly, within a few months of giving
up my search, I was blessed to meet a Master
who I instantly and intuitively recognised as
my guru. But accepting him was not easy.
When I faced him, I realised that my ego was
militating against the idea of submitting to
a human being. I detested going to him and
acknowledging that someone could be greater
than me, superior to me. The reality was vastly
different from how I had imagined it to be.
Finally, forced by circumstances, I had to seek
his refuge and surrender at his feet. My ego
was effortlessly decapitated by its arch enemy.
After this, my world transformed. I was
enveloped by his unconditional love, kindness,
benevolence, protection, and grace. My life
became magical. I began to experience what it
is to be sheltered and cared for by the Divine,
at all times in one’s life.
But the best part is that instead of being
a physical presence in my life, my Master
chooses to communicate with me through my
heart. The more I listen to it, the better my life
becomes. I don’t miss being in his physical
presence. If the purpose of spirituality is to
connect with you inner sadguru, then I can
confidently say that my embodied Master has
helped me reach there faster than my own
efforts could ever have.Editor of Life Positive, Shivi Verma is a devotee
who found all her answers in loving God
passionately.