I have slowly built a wall around myself, brick by brick,

Every time someone comes to break it, I unknowingly make it harder for others.

The more I am hurt inside, the more I hurt others,

The more someone loves me, the more I hurt them.

I wish someone could understand me,

I wish I could explain myself to someone,

Every time I try to convince others of my behaviour, it is actually myself I am trying

to convince.

Every time I convince others that I am just doing my duty, it is actually me bound

to others by love.

The more you try to help me, the more I feel incapable,

The more you avoid me, the more I feel unwanted.

Every time I am angry at you, it is myself I am more angry with,

Every time I say I don’t need you, all the more I need your assurance,

Every time I say leave me alone, all the more I need your comfort and security,

I don’t know why is it so hard to say what I think and what I feel,

Probably I myself don’t know what I feel!

It is just that you need to try harder to break the wall I have erected.

rrogance, My Shield

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Pooja Shah