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KR: I am travelling so much right now that I would wantto go back to my house in Manali which is so beautiful.I never get to be there, so I hope to travel there.SM: What do you do when you are completely onyour own?KR: Play with my little dog, Pluto. Just read a book. I likemorning time. I like the chirping of birds, just singing,lazing around.SM: So you’re nature’s child?KR: Yes.SM: It is always said that people who are constantly in thepublic eye always look for little bit of private time becausethat’s when we find ourselves. Every time you do a veryintense role in a film, do you seek out that me-time?KR: Characters leave very strong mental impressions onyou. You literally live them and go through those traumas whether or notthey exist in reality. Films can be very intense. You can feel mentally andemotionally exhausted after a film is over.The last film I shot was Manikarnika (The Queen of Jhansi), which is set ina war zone. So sometimes you tend to lose track of time and yourself. Then youneed some time to unwind and rewire and go back to at least being a bit balanced.SM: I feel, as a person you are misunderstood in this industry because a lotof people find you intimidating or rude. But when I work with you, it’salways fun. I face the same problem. What do you have to say about whoyou really are?KR: I honestly think I am fun around you and people I like. I have a verysmall circle of friends. I’m picky and sensitive to energies. Sometimes I’m ina group and I’ll be that person who has gone completely quiet. I can’tpinpoint exactly why, but some people can do that to me. And I’ve learnedthat when you’re famous, you also become a target of not just love andadmiration but of vengeance. People will pick on something you said—evena joke—and it’ll become a story for them to tell for their whole lives. I don’twant to subject myself to bad behaviour. So I don’t go out announcing thatI’m available as a friend. I choose my friends. There are very few SabyasachisI’m going to meet!SM: All of Bollywood is getting married. Any plans?KR: I came very close to getting married twice.SM: What is marriage to you?KR: Actually when I wanted to get married, I had unrealistic and delusionalnotions about marriage. But now I think I better understand the institution.A very interesting man once told me a bond with age becomes bondage.I don’t think it’s made in heaven or anything but yes, marriage is a greatinstitution that ensures emotional, financial, and physical bonding. If all ofthese things are taken care of, people can focus on what they really need todo, what they want to dedicate their lives to. ■“It’s not the way youlook but yourconfidence that makesyou attractive. I tell alot of women who arelarge to learn to wearfitted garments andnot hide.—Sabyasachi MukherjeeDress, Sabyasachi. Earrings, Sabyasachi Jewelry. Watch, Omega.