—Lily- • •
Dear Ellen,
I need to apologize to you.
It’s been a week since I’ve written to you and a week since I’ve watched your
show. Don’t worry, I still record it so you’ll get the ratings, but every day we get
off the bus, Atlas takes a quick shower and then we make out.
Every day.
It’s awesome.
I don’t know what it is about him, but I feel so comfortable with him. He’s
so sweet and thoughtful. He never does anything I don’t feel comfortable with,
but so far he hasn’t tried anything I don’t feel comfortable with.
I’m not sure how much I should divulge here, since you and I have never
met in person. But let me just say that if he’s ever wondered what my boobs feel
like . . .
Now he knows.
I can’t for the life of me figure out how people function from day to day
when they like someone this much. If it were up to me, we would kiss all day
and all night and do nothing in between except maybe talk a little. He tells
funny stories. I love it when he’s in a talkative mood because it doesn’t happen
very often, but he uses his hands a lot. He smiles a lot, too, and I love his smile
even more than I love his kiss. And sometimes I just tell him to shut up and
stop smiling or kissing or talking so I can stare at him. I like looking at his
eyes. They’re so blue that he could be standing across a room and a person
could tell how blue his eyes were. The only thing I don’t like about kissing him
sometimes is when he closes his eyes.
And no. We still haven’t talked about Boston.
—Lily
Dear Ellen,
Yesterday afternoon when we were riding the bus, Atlas kissed me. It wasn’t
anything new to us because we had kissed a lot by this point, but it’s the first
time he ever did it in public. When we’re together everything else just seems to
fade away, so I don’t think he even thought about other people noticing. But