good but exceptional, with Chet Douglass my only rival in sight. But I began to see that Chet
was weakened by the very genuineness of his interest in learning. He got carried away by things;
for example, he was so fascinated by the tilting planes of solid geometry that he did almost as
badly in trigonometry as I did myself. When we read Candide it opened up a new way of looking
at the world to Chet, and he continued hungrily reading Voltaire, in French, while the class went
on to other people. He was vulnerable there, because to me they were all pretty much alike—
Voltaire and Molière and the laws of motion and the Magna Carta and the Pathetic Fallacy and
Tess of the D’Urbervilles —and I worked indiscriminately on all of them.
Finny had no way of knowing this, because it all happened so far ahead of him scholastically. In
class he generally sat slouched in his chair, his alert face following the discussion with an
expression of philosophical comprehension, and when he was forced to speak himself the
hypnotic power of his voice combined with the singularity of his mind to produce answers which
were often not right but could rarely be branded as wrong. Written tests were his downfall
because he could not speak them, and as a result he got grades which were barely passing. It
wasn’t that he never worked, because he did work, in short, intense bouts now and then. As that
crucial summer wore on and I tightened the discipline on myself Phineas increased his bouts of
studying.
I could see through that. I was more and more certainly becoming the best student in the school;
Phineas was without question the best athlete, so in that way we were even. But while he was a
very poor student I was a pretty good athlete, and when everything was thrown into the scales
they would in the end tilt definitely toward me. The new attacks of studying were his emergency
measures to save himself. I redoubled my effort.
It was surprising how well we got along in these weeks. Sometimes I found it hard to remember
his treachery, sometimes I discovered myself thoughtlessly slipping back into affection for him
again. It was hard to remember when one summer day after another broke with a cool effulgence
over us, and there was a breath of widening life in the morning air—something hard to
describe—an oxygen intoxicant, a shining northern paganism, some odor, some feeling so
hopelessly promising that I would fall back in my bed on guard against it. It was hard to
remember in the heady and sensual clarity of these mornings; I forgot whom I hated and who
hated me. I wanted to break out crying from stabs of hopeless joy, or intolerable promise, or
because these mornings were too full of beauty for me, because I knew of too much hate to be
contained in a world like this.
Summer lazed on. No one paid any attention to us. One day I found myself describing to Mr.
Prud’homme how Phineas and I had slept on the beach, and he seemed to be quite interested in
it, in all the details, so much so that he missed the point; that we had flatly broken a basic rule.
No one cared, no one exercised any real discipline over us; we were on our own.
August arrived with a deepening of all the summertime splendors of New Hampshire. Early in
the month we had two days of light, steady rain which aroused a final fullness everywhere. The
branches of the old trees, which had been familiar to me either half-denuded or completely gaunt
during the winter terms at Devon, now seemed about to break from their storms of leaves. Little