the_debt_of_time

"No! Just a little... snogging and... stuff." It was impossible not to see Harry
looking back at her through Lily's eyes, and she suddenly felt awkward talking about having
sex.
"So, was it your... first time?"
Mia could tell by the lowered, shy tone that her friend was interested for more than
one reason. "No. I dated Remus for a year."
Lily gasped. "You've shagged Remus and Sirius? Merlin, do they know? Are they
going to fight over you?" Her smile faded into a look of absolute panic. "Oh God, what if
they start duelling over you in the common room? Remus is a prefect! How am I supposed
to handle that?"
Mia chuckled in amusement, remembering when she was just as tightly wound
about prefect duties. "How did my love life suddenly become the subject of your prefect
record?"
"Love life?" Lily turned and looked back at her with a knowing grin.
Mia scowled. "Shut up, Lils."
"Which one do you love?"
"Both," Mia admitted truthfully.
It was a constant thorn in her side, having feelings for both of the wizards. Knowing
the outcome only made it more difficult. She wondered: if she had not known what the
future held in store for them all, would she have reacted differently to each of them? Would
she have stayed with Remus despite the fact that she was not his mate? She had been the
one to bring the subject up, and she wondered if he would have ever told her or if he would
have gone on dating her, ignoring the fact that they were not meant to be. She wondered
if she would have fought harder for Sirius after that first kiss following Narcissa's wedding.
Would they have ended up together without the knowledge that they were already involved
in a provoked Soul Bond?
The fact was, she did know the future and could not ignore it.
"I love them differently. I can't be with Sirius. Not right now. It's not time."
"There's a time frame?"
"Yes." Mia sighed. "It's complicated."
"What about you isn't?" Lily laughed. "No offence. So what was it like?"
"What? Shagging?" Mia scoffed. "With which one?"