anywhere that far away by myself
before, where I knew no one, didn’t
speak the language, had no idea what to
expect, and I swear I built it up to
become one of the most terrifying things
I ever did in my life. Because I imagined
myself as this tiny little dot, all the way
on the other side of the globe, floating
around in space where I was utterly
anonymous, a ghost, a stranger, where I
could disappear without a trace and
nobody I loved would have any idea
what happened to me. Poof!
It got so bad that I started fantasizing
about seriously injuring myself or that
my best friend would die so I wouldn’t
have to go (for some reason, just