Half Girlfriend

another boy’s mother. I don’t want anyone’s pity either. I am a
divorcee. If that makes me tainted, so be it.
I am not upset with Rani Sahiba. I came to Patna to be alone.
Madhav happened. Yes, he's nice. I know he loves me, and is falling
for me more and more every day. I like him, too. Is that why I said yes
to a job in Patna? Did I do so in the hope of meeting him again?
Perhaps.
To be loved and to love is nice. However, right now, more than
love, I want peace.
Madhav won’t get it. He won’t let go if I explain all this to him. I
have been through it. He hasn’t. He won’t stop pursuing me. The
simplest way out is if he thinks I am no longer an option.
I had a minor infection in Dumraon. So far, I have pretended it
hasn’t healed. Hence, when I leave, it will be more believable. Sure,
he will be upset. However, he will get over it eventually and marry a
princess sooner or later, who will come to him without a past, without
deep dark secrets.
My fingers shake as I write this. I must stay strong. I have to type
my parting note. I am faking my illness. Maybe I can at least be
honest in my last letter and tell him how I feel about him...
He's coming home for the final rehearsal, it will be our last night
together. Is it wrong if I make him stay over?