15.10 Experiences during night practice
Tension
It can happen that tension builds up, to the point where you have
to roll over on your side and end the practice. Usually, as soon as
you are not on your back any more and you have given up the
practice for that night, the tension stops and you can fall asleep.
This experience, which is similar to the build-up of tension that
can occur during meditation (see section 10.11) is due to energetic
and emotional blockages. Don't try to force yourself to stay on
your back at any cost, which can easily turn the practice into an
ordeal. The real answer is on another level: exploring the blockage
through appropriate techniques such as ISIS regression.
There is another reason that may cause or exaggerate muscular
tension during night practice: maintaining vibration in the eye.
Remember that during night practice there should be neither
vibration in the eye nor throat friction, as discussed in Chapter
- Each time you feel tension during your night practice, make
sure that no particular awareness is kept in the eye. Focussing on
the heart may help.
Falling asleep all the time
Don't despair – you are not the only one. At least you have found
the final answer to insomnia. Here are a few suggestions to
improve the situation:
- Practise on the floor, not in bed.
- If you regularly fall asleep at a particular point of the
technique, omit that phase for a while, going straight to the next
phase. This helps to break what can become a bad habit. Return to
the phase some days or weeks later. - Use night-practice cassettes. At the Clairvision School, experience
has shown that a number of students who had difficulty
practising this technique reported immediate improvement as soon
as they started using the cassettes of the correspondence courses. - Practise during the day, in addition to your nightly session. This
will increase your capacity to remain aware while on the razor's
edge. - Get a watch with a countdown and a gentle beep. Program it to
beep every five minutes during your night practice. - Stargazing: Practise looking at the stars every night for a few
minutes or more before going to bed. Be totally in your eye while