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weddings, christenings and funerals, and to
surprise family and friends on big birthdays.
And then came Covid.
Having spent the first two months of 2020
crisscrossing the continent on a weekly basis
for work, I was suddenly grounded. For the
next six months, I barely ventured beyond
my little patch of Brooklyn.
My work, like everyone’s, took a knock.
I worried about my parents, fit and healthy
in their early seventies but living in the UK
without either of their children in the same
country (my brother, a pilot, also lives abroad).
If anything happened to them I would need
to leave, but that would mean abandoning my
own life – for who knows how long? The terms
of my visa and the US travel ban (lifted only
last week, after more than 18 months) meant
that if I left the US, I couldn’t get back in.
Stuck in my outrageously expensive one-
bedroom apartment, on regular weepy Zooms
with my mum and dad, I began to wonder
whether it was all worth it.
Six miserable months into the pandemic,
I finally made it out of Brooklyn to stay with
my best friend, who had rented a little house
upstate. The plan – since none of us could
venture far, and certainly not overseas – was
to escape the city for the summer. Five days
in, I fell off a mountain bike at high speed
and – ever one for thoroughness – broke my
shoulder four ways.
I was fortunate in that my friend cut
me out of my sports bra and drove me to a
nearby clinic, where they cleaned up my road
rash, X-rayed my smashed-up humerus and
doled out enough opioids to fell an elephant.
I was unfortunate, however – or, some
might say, foolish and reckless – in that I did
not have health insurance. Yes, I know, but
in the US, health insurance is tied to and
partially funded by your employer, and I didn’t
have one. As a freelancer, the cheapest policy
I could buy was more than $650 a month.
And that’s just the premiums – you still have
to pay each time you see a doctor or specialist,
get a prescription, test or X-ray, or in any way
access healthcare. I’d never felt in a financial
position to afford that, and when I got ill
- which was rarely – I paid $250 upfront to
see a doctor at a walk-in clinic. Which worked
fine until I found myself, almost blacking out
with pain, telling my best friend she could not
take me to A&E because, uninsured, it would
cost me thousands (the clinic, by contrast, cost
about $800, including all the opioids); and
until I needed major surgery – within ten
days, I was told, or the break would be too old
to repair. That ruled out flying back to the
UK; Covid rules meant I’d need to isolate for
two weeks on arrival before I even saw an
orthopaedic specialist.
So those ten days were spent applying for
insurance – which, in New York, I could not
be refused even with a pre-existing condition
(thank you, Barack Obama) – and hounding
the health authority to backdate it. Ordinarily,
the insurance would have kicked in on
September 1; my surgery needed to happen
by August 7, latest. I found out an hour before
I went into surgery that I was covered.
And thank goodness. The total bill for
my surgery – a four-way proximal humerus
repair – was $230,000. I have nine pins in my
shoulder, at $1,500 each, plus a plate at
$15,000. That feels like a steal, though,
compared with my overnight stay on the ward
the night before surgery at $17,000 (nil by
mouth too), or the “bone substitute hydroset”
- injectable shoulder concrete, basically
- at $91,000 for 15 cubic centimetres.
Medical bills are, unsurprisingly, the
leading cause of bankruptcy in the US.
Unable to perform any exercise that
required my upper body, I invested in a Peloton
(hello, lockdown cliché) and spent most of
last autumn sweating on my stationary bike.
Having always been buoyantly optimistic and
positive, I struggled with my mental health for
the first time.
When, one morning in early December
while staying with friends in Washington DC,
I cried inconsolably midway through the
washing-up, it was apparent something
was up. The trigger: the Pet Shop Boys’ Go
West, a glorious anthem to exploration and
I CRIED THROUGH THE PET SHOP BOYS’
GO WEST. SOMETHING HAD TO CHANGE
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JOSH ANDRUS, COURTESY OF DAN ROOKWOOD
The Rookwood family in Santa Barbara
Jane Mulkerrins in New York, March 2020