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her to find out the truth. He regretted not asking his brother
about what happened.
He wondered if he had killed Jarvis because he
believed that he deserved to die or because he was waiting
for the chance to kill his brother and get rid of the
uncomfortable feeling he always had toward him. That
feeling he had all his life and always tried to avoid having
to deal with jealousy. Yes. Jarvis was right when he felt
that his brother, Hammond, was jealous of him. In fact, his
heart was filled with jealousy.
Why does everybody love Jarvis more than me?
Why does my father favor him to me? Why is he a stronger
fighter than I am? Why does he lead the Prouds in battle
although he is younger than me? Why does he get all the
glory in battle and praise after it? Why is he better looking
than I am? Why do all women want him and not me? I was
having a good life. I was everything until he was born, and
my life started to get ugly. He became everything. Why did
he beat me, although he was born in the same house I was
born in, had the same parents I had, and lived under the
same conditions I lived under? Jarvis is my enemy, and I
have to beat him, Hammond had always wondered. It had
been this way ever since Jarvis was born, ever since
everybody started to notice his excellence and favor him.
Hammond suffered “the big brother” complex
suffered by many big brothers. It makes one believe that he
is more entitled to everything. He is more entitled to
goodness, happiness and to be protected from evil and
misery. Whatever a father gives his children should be
given to him first. He is the second in command in the
family, next to his father. He should be loved the most by
his parents. He may do anything to his siblings, even if he
does them wrong. They must submit to him no matter what
he does. He is the most important member of the family.