Record of a Friendship

quietly and are watching, without taking responsibility, my deadly
difficult struggle to put these things across. When, after a decade or
two, I shall have succeeded and be worn out from frustration, human
disappointment, and economic and psychic strain, then they will corne­
I am sure of that. But I doubt whether I shall accept them then.
Einstein is very cautious. I do not doubt that he knows that I am right.
He saw the radiation in the orgonoscope and he saw the temperature
difference in his house, and he was informed of the much greater
creation of heat in the open air, without a ceiling. He well knows that it
is a bomb. He also knows about the results obtained so far in cancer.
Now you understand my attitude toward physics and physicists in
general. I want you now to join my standpoint that there are no
authorities in orgone physics anywhere; that the fight is hard, and that
I am on my own. But the facts are coming through slowly, thanks to the
conscientious and extensive proofs I have given, most of which are
not published yet. The matter is especially hard and difficult because
the discovery of the orgone overthrows a great many wrong assumptions
and emergency theories in the physical world. The four and one half
hours of this intensive discussion with Einstein made him make the
remark in the end, when I told him that I was originally a psychiatrist:
"What else are you doing?" He had thought that I was originally a
physicist.
Well, that is the story. It would be very painful and regrettable if I
had to publish it. The temperature difference which meant a bomb to
Einstein has been observed now for nearly four years, constantly and in
all kinds of variations. It is a bomb because it explains the heat of the
earth which was not understood until now, and it explains the immense
quantities of heat of the sun, which had not been understood until now
either. They become simple through an understanding of the fact that
when the orgone particles which are everywhere are stopped in their
motion, they create heat. The body-temperature and body-heat have not
been understood either. They constitute one of the greatest riddles of
biology, which is admitted by leading scientists. We don't have to con­
sider the chatter-utterances of the small lice in science, who know every­
thing by putting a label, a word, undefined and ununderstood, which
means nothing, on every phenomenon.
Now as to the money. I don't feel that it would be correct to accept
your offer. Your institution is your own worry economically, and you
are contributing your part as a member of the Institute by sustaining