and you have it. The fools in parliament are talking of defence dug-outs
etc. U.S.A. may get off lightly but this island as an air base for U.S.A.
would be wiped out with death rays. Zoe's delightful happiness and
cleverness and beauty make the picture terrifying for us.
I don't get you about the Institute not appearing in press notices.
Can you imagine my sitting for the first time in U.S.A. and NOT telling
them the main object of my visit ... to see you? I think you are being
a bit unfair to me here, for I never fail to acknowledge my debt to you
and your work. If you came here to lecture under the auspices of
Summerhill, not one paper would mention S'hil1; all would simply write
about what you were here for and what your message was. Also consider
that the Orgone Institute may be on the black list of papers. Here the
Times would never allow my name to be mentioned; they refuse to
publish any letter I write. I wish to God I knew what your attitude to
publicity is. If I mention your work to a Bernal you get angry, but if
you think I don't mention it to some journalists you get annoyed. In the
New School where I lectured last summer, I said that your work wiped
out the old psychoanalysis, but if I lecture again I won't know what
to say about you. I'll give you a fatherly lecture about this when I come
over, my lad.
Your new news of the G-M counter is fascinating. But I won't
tell Bernal!
As for Ena and treatment, I fear it is impossible. I won't earn enough.
I have put our names down for passages on a slowish ship, the Britannic,
for the Q. Elizabeth and Q. Mary are fully booked already. And I am
anxious in case we can't go (the Cunard can demand full payment if we
don't go).
Am having staff difficulties, a most tiresome thing. Some new ones
sit with sneering faces when I talk of children, and one of them thinks
I am an old out-of-date fool ... and I can't do a thing, for teachers
can't be got.
I want very much to be at that conference and meet the doctors you
mention, especially Hoppe.
Ena and I often say we should start a home for mothers and children
of a week old. The more I see of stiff stomachs the more I feel that the
start should be made with infants. Ena has been an ideal mother for
Zoe, and the result is just excellent.
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