lot of cheering from the audience when I answered that the C.P. was
no nearer freedom than any party, and spoke of Russia 19 17 as com
pared with Russia 1949.
My book came out a week ago* and already I've had a few reviews,
which I'll send on to you. Most you send sit on the fence; they are
afraid to come out, just as here my reviews don't say a thing about the
sex in the book. It seems that a journalist must always be on the safe
side if he or she is going to keep the job.
Life rather worrying at present. I can't bring myself to sack one of the
teachers who has managed to get many kids attached to him emotionally
by flattery, football etc. There would be a revolution in the school. But
the moment I can get someone better to take his place I shall try to be
brave. Also my own orgone therapy isn't satisfying me. Only in one or
two do I get any reaction. I may be at fault owing to a poor technique
or it may be that I can't be Neill the headmaster and Neill the doctor
at the same time. A big worry too is Geld [money] and I don't see how
income is to overtake expenses.
Don't like the idea of John Dewey reviewing my book. He is 90, and
very unlikely to have any truck with self-regulation.
No news of state inspection yet. I'm not worrying about it, but realise
that when it comes life won't be worth living; it will be full of blue forms
stating how many cups of tea have been served per month to age group
9 to 12, and similar important items.
It will soon be time for you to go north again. I hate to think it
will be another year before we see you and Dodge Pond and the Ob
servatory.t And the rye. Ah, I stopped smoking seven weeks ago ... I
feel fresher in the morning, also I feel more aggressive. I don't think
you should stop, Herr Doktor, for you might be dangerous to builders
& baracans & bradys.
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Forest Hills, New York
March 7, 1949
My dear Neill:
I am in a great hurry, and tired at that, so my letter will be
short only.* The Problem Family.
t Now the Wilhelm Reich Museum.