us ... the word of the badly reared child of 5 has more weight than
anything we can say. Why? In spite of her fearless life of 3 years she is
prone to accept fear even though it does not stiffen her stomach. What
structural feature in a baby reacts to fear? Tell me the answer, but even
if I know it I can't eliminate that fear. I took her to the zoo yesterday
with a girl of just 6. A lion roared. Amarilla fled in fear. Zoe who hadn't
minded the roar saw the other's alarm, and she also showed fear. I wish
I knew even the elements of child nature. Puzzled too when Zoe some
times says at bedtime: "Go away, Daddy, I don't LIKE you." Maybe I
am not a good father, distributing my love to 70 children, but that
would apply to Ena too, even more so. Ena asked her who said that
about not liking Daddy and she answered "Debby"... the "trained"
stiff-stomach girl of 5 who makes Z. taste her shit and threatens to beat
her if she doesn't. Again apparently the self regno child accepts what the
spoiled brat says even about Daddy. Makes me long for an island with
only Zoe, Peter, Pussy* etc. on it, but even then I guess fears would
appear. Prophylaxis has its snags I see.
I fear that Haire will have the last word to your letter, for he will
revive the story of the Sex Reform League where you wanted (according
to him) the Communist line, while he and others wanted the League to
remain middle class. Never argue with a guy who owns a journal in
which he has the last word. IGNORE 'EM ALL, man.
•••Forest Hills, New York
December I, 1949
My dear Neill:
The convention will be held from August 20th to the end of
August, and we want you to be there. I suggest coming to Orgonon
directly, and lecturing after the convention.
The understanding of and enthusiasm for orgonomy is growing every
where by leaps and bounds, not only in England. It sometimes seems
frightening to what dimensions the responsibilities have grown. One of
these responsibilities is exactly the problem which you pose regarding
children who accept pestilent thoughts and attitudes so much more easily
than rational ones. When I said in 1947 that the Brady attack came from
* Dr. Wolfe's young daughter.